Happy in my own skin,,,,,,,

Greetings!

I couldn't make up my mind what I wanted to write about today.  I have so many thoughts running around in that pea brain of mine I can hardly contain them, LOL  So anyway,this is what I went with, LOL.

I am happy in my own skin for the first time in a very long time.  As a victim of domestic violence I was not happy for years, but that is well over now for the last 4 glorious years.  It took me time to work through everything I felt, especially the negative stuff about myself.  I had absolutely no self-esteem 4 years ago.  It was a long battle to get here but I am finally happy in my own skin.  I am happy with decisions I make even though not all of them turn out to be the right ones.  I am happy with my life even though it is far from perfect and I am far from wealthy or having everything I want.  I accept me even if no one else does.  Frankly, I no longer care what other people think about me.  They can like me or not, it's up to them.

I used to live my life to please everyone else.  Finally, I am living my life for me!!  And God of course!!  I am not saying I am no longer willing to do things for others, but I have to come into the equation.  I am putting me first for a change.

One of the things I did that has really made me smile is redecorated my home office.  It has taken me a couple of months and I am not totally done yet, but I love how it is coming out.  I changed the wall color, put up a cute country border and have hung tons of pictures and mementos around the room.  I have heard it said many times you should surround yourself with the things that make you smile and you will smile all the time.  That is exactly what I have done!!  And yes, I do smile all the time!!

I spend a lot of time in my office, especially now that I am working from home.  I like being able to come in here and smile.  The things I have in here are not expensive things but they do have a lot of sentiment to me.  I have my books, which take up half the room, the sign from my store, which is a place that really warmed my heart.  I have family photos, photos of my ancestors that I never met, photos from my store of special times, and photos of my precious pets.  I have photo albums with pictures of special times in my life and places I have been.

My office is also my TV room where I sit and relax in the evening.  I have a nice little recliner to put my feet up and it is so comfy.  If I don't want to watch TV I have a ton of books, especially Christian books that I can read.  I love to do research and family genealogy.  Along with the genealogy I learn a lot about history that I never seemed to learn or at least retain in high school.  Perhaps being able to tie it to my ancestors makes it more interesting to me?

I like to write so I am enjoying this blog.  I am thinking about stepping up the frequency of my posts starting next week.  I do not or at least try not to ever write on Sundays.  That is the Lord's Day and should be kept holy.

Monday I plan on writing about canning and putting up food.  One of my favorite subjects!!

Until next time,,,,,,,,Blessings!!